Hello, hello my dear readers!
Today I'm molesting you with some serious thoughts about art and live in general.
I had a very tough time the last few months and caught a very bad cold one week ago which gave me time to reflect about my way of living the past few years. Maybe you will identify your own style of living with this because I think a lot of people are struggling through life without having much fun ore free time like I did.
Let me shortly introduce what I mean. I'm studying in my fifth semester atm. (Japanese language and Japanese related courses) and my weekly workload is like crazy. No time at weekends, no time for friends IF I wand to keep my good grades up. Well, this is what I thought till last semester. There was a point for me where I just couldn't get on with this kind of workload. I was learning like crazy, doing homework like there was no tomorrow and had barely any time to draw (which is very important to me).
I was literally working like a machine, but then I changed some things and stopped being all crazy about what I have to do next and what I have to learn and especially about what will happen if I don't do so.
I didn't manage to stop those thoughts completely but lets say I pushed them a bit away from myself. And I became happier. Really. It changed a lot.
Lately I had exams and fell back into those habits but I managed not to stress me out that much.
Right afterwards I became ill and lay in bed for almost one week and OMG it was great. Just doing nothing, thinking about nothing, just wasting time and sleep a lot, it was the best thing that could happen to me I guess XD'
This made me think about today's society in general. I know no one who is not a bit like this. Everyone stresses themselves out about university or work or school or whatever. But why? Is that all that counts in live? If it's about me I think it was the most important thing to me for the past few years. Just being good enough and learning enough and such things. I mean, YES these are important parts of live, but what will it mean to me in the end? What does it mean to be good all the time and learn so much stuff? It's nice to know a lot vocabulary and kanji etc, but isn't it more important to stay healthy and be lucky with what you are doing?
I think for myself it is very important to draw and I had no time for this because I went all crazy about grades and stuff. And I decided to lessen the stress I put onto myself and just do more for myself to be lucky. And it works, even my grades stayed the same, they are still good :3 I think no one should dedicate him or herself completely to such things as work or whatever. It's important, but there are more valuable things in live than money or good grades.
Wahh...so much stuff...but I thought about telling you my point of view and would love to get to know your opinion about this topic :3